Today my grandfather passed away. Dealing with death is always tough and so I am going to go ahead and ask for anyone’s forgiveness ahead of time if you happen to think that writing out your feelings on a blog is a bit insensitive. I have come to learn that I cope best when I am able to write out my thoughts and force myself to make coherent sentences.
My PawPaw, as all the grandkids referred to him, was someone I will never forget. First and foremost, he was a man of God and I am a beneficiary of his faith. Faith multiplies and if you don’t truly believe that yet, come spend some time with my family. Because my PawPaw loved God, he taught my dad how to love God, and it trickled down from there. And one day, even though he won’t be able to meet them, there will be more generations who will follow after God because of the seeds he sowed during his time here.
My PawPaw was an interesting character. He always seemed to be trying to invent something, raised goats, and was Texan through and through. I inherited some of his stubbornness which I have come to see as a good thing because it means that I am willing to fight for what I believe in. Every time I was around him he always made sure to let me know he was proud of me.
But today my PawPaw became a citizen of heaven. There’s part of me that is jealous because he has now seen Jesus face to face. Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith. Jesus, the one who gave everything for sinful mankind. Jesus, the one who loves unconditionally. Jesus, the one whose name was written on my PawPaw’s heart.
Sometimes we don’t understand the why behind things that happen to us. But for those of us who are Christians, we can have that blessed assurance that God’s ways are for the best. Yes, they are sometimes painful, but God never promised us life would be easy. In every season of life, God is good and God is still God and I will hold on to that promise.
So I praise God for the life of my PawPaw and for the seeds of faithfulness he sowed. Because of one man’s faithfulness, generations are now faithful. And for that I will be forever grateful.
PawPaw, tell Mimi hi for me and enjoy being in the continual presence of the Lord. I love you.
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